In my visit with Dr. Salsa today to go over the bloodwork that I had for immune testing and the Clo.mid Challenge, I learned that I am truly ‘special’ although not for behavioral issues. I’m special because I am in the 1% of recurrent miscarriers who have chromosomally abnormal embyros but neither partner has a chromosomal abnormality. 1 percent. I’m shocked that the percentage is so low. I had really thought it was more prevelant than that. Can you imagine if I played the lottery with these odds and my luck? I could be a millionaire several times over.
On the other side of the statistics, though, I still have a 76% chance of actually having a living, screaming, squalling infant at the end of a nine month tunnel. As I told Dr. Salsa, it is literally inconceivable to me right now that this would happen. He knows of what I speak – he and his wife had three miscarriages in a row before number 4 stuck.
Other good news: no immune issues and a nice, normal FSH. Smack me, though, for wanting something definitive – preferably curable – as to why I cannot carry a child to term (other than bad luck).
We’re on track for an IVF in March 2009. It seems far away, but I know it will be here before I blink. I hope I’m ready by then.