I could tell you that I have been and am on pins and needles waiting for The Answer. I could tell you that I have been debating with myself about whether or not to pee on the dreaded stick. I could tell you that I’ve been lurking on sites about symptoms at 6dp5dt.
Unfortunately, I would be lying. And I suck at lying. I could never play poker successfully because I suck so much at lying.
No, I’ve been surprisingly zen. I know that I have done everything I can and it is really no longer up to me – well, other than the big no-no’s like shooting up heroin, and rollercoasters. Luckily, I’ve never acquired a taste for either of these. Mr. X and I have also discussed how we want to proceed in the event it doesn’t work this time and once again, I am greatly relieved to realize that we are on the exact same page. We’ve also been discussing other options for our lives regardless of whether we end up parenting. Building or renovating our dream house has been batted around quite a lot. In other words, we’ve got plans that extend beyond and do not depend upon what may come to pass. And that is a great comfort.
I think I’m also still so grateful to be released from the mindsuck of bedrest. I knew daytime television was a wasteland, but geez. Even HBO didn’t do much to help stem the tide of mediocrity. So, to be able to go back to work and get up when I wanted to (!), stay standing for more than 5 minutes (!) and ponder questions headier than how long has it been since I got up last? has been a wonderful gift. G and I have also been training for pet therapy which is as much about him training as it me, so that has been a great distraction as well.
And so, what have I been doing with myself if I haven’t been obsessing over the fact that I am in the two week wait? Lots of stuff. I’ve been working, cooking (I baked a cherry pie!), reading, visiting with friends, watching BSG with Mr. X (Xena, how could you?!) and enjoying our first full week of gorgeous warm weather. I also have been guilty of major animal snorgling. It is an excellent way to spend any time, let alone the dreaded 2WW.
Other than the morning butt shot, no caffeine and no booze, you wouldn’t think that I am where I am. And that’s just the way I like it.
image: zenera
a.k.a.mrs.x 
i am very impressed. not obessessing during an ivf tww is a HARD thing to do! sounds like you’ve been able to distract yourself with some other fun things!
(even though you are working hard not to focus on it, i’ve got all my fingers and toes crossed for you!!)
you’re doing an amazing job and having a great time!
i’m sending you some positive vibes!
Great that your feeling zen, i’m a planner and always think that it’s good to have a plan. so hoping great things for both of you.
You are a zen master. At 6dp5dt I had been through $30 worth of pee sticks. When’s the day of reckoning?
I am very, very impressed. I hope it keeps going smoothly, with happy results. 🙂 You’ll have to let me in on the secret, because I know I won’t be so zen when it’s my turn.
The 2ww IS hard (I am there now – via IVF#1) I certainly hope yours goes goes quickly as mine certainly hasn’t, lol.
You don’t like rollercoasters? lol.
When’s beta day?
Excellent! I hope as the last few days approach, your zen mind continues to dominate.
Having other plans/dreams really helps, doesn’t it? As do kitties and some BSG.
I love that you’re so relaxed about it!! You’ll have to tell us all how you did it!